8. FEELINGS

So Sick and tired of having this feeling.
Feeling that is stuck in me.
I can never see myself happy or healing.
As I said before, my heart is bleeding.
There no one to help me.
As much as I’m praying
For the feeling to go away
It’s just not helping.
It’s in my brain.
Why did I have to love than lost.
It’s the worst feeling.
Plus I never asked.
The understanding will never come to my thought
I guess this was my best luck.
This should be something I shouldn’t worry about.
I guess this is the way it’s meant to be.
I’m not blessed to be
With the girl I still love to see.
I wanna be free,
I’m still sufferin.
The feeling, the thoughts
The memories,
And our cute fights.
It’s stuck in my mind.
It has no where to go
But to stay inside.
And probably hurt me till I Die.
That’s how I feel.
I know I’m killing myself like this.
Thinking about her and reminiscing our first kiss.
It was nine months.
Nine month of glory and happiness.
Even though we fought
And at times didn’t get along.
We still stayed strong and
Prayed together all night long.
I was good.
WAS is the word that now I use.
Every morning with a happy smile.
I knew I was getting up
For someone I’d be living with for a while.
Now it’s all gone,
I feel incomplete.
Getting up every morning
Seeing no light.
Light that always shined at night.
Life’s not bright.
Not anymore,
She was the shooting star I liked.
This is killing me.
The more I speak,
The more I weep.
But I don’t know how else to get my feelings out.
I’ve tried everything,
I’m left with nothing.
The world’s turning,
Turning on me.
The song that was playing,
It’s been changed by a heart beat.
No more song,
No more music.
All I hear is a voice
Voice that says make that choice.
But I don’t want to,
I just can’t.
I just don’t want to forget.
Even though I’m good and she’s not
I want her, bcuz I can’t live without.
It’s not the same,
My life changed,
The more time passes,
The more I crave.
You never know she might change,
She might change around my age.
But I pray and hope it won’t be too late.
I have faith!
But U know what
Forget her!
The things she did to me
She’s the one who should suffer.
Like I said
I’m good she’s not,
No more thinking
I’m goona destroy my past.
Cuz she’s not worth anything
Trust me
We all know she won’t last…
By Poem_Grox_Davo